if you have their names and addresses, either your just looking for attention, or it wasnt that bad. If I had that info and was as mad as you claim........welll ii could list 100 activities id be enjoying, crying dread wouldnt be one of them. when will people learn dread isnt just a name, its a mantra, its what we will make you fell if you come here looking for cringy emotional
Go to the ER if you are feeling suicidal. If you are feeling like death you will probably need medication / drugs and support. See a doctor. You will not get the help you need here.