committing crime is mentally draining! (criminal mental health awareness : CafeDread | Torhoo darknet markets

when i used to be on the sidelines and not in the game i used to think "what are these criminals so stressed about! just have good opsec and there is nothing to worry about! i'd totally never stress!"

as my monero balance increases, so does my paranoia.

as I write custom programs for people/ do all sorts of work on the DN, for people that I know might not be up to anything moral, I think to myself, "if they get busted, what will happen to me?"

of course it is critical to deny any job that goes against your personal morals. I am a deeply moral person and I would not do anything or work with anyone which could result in people getting harmed, or stealing etc because that is just wrong. But if i write a code to make someone's carding easier, and they tell me they need it for educational purposes, how can i deny them?

this is getting mentally draining and of course there isnt any mental health awareness for criminals, as ridiculous as that sounds. of course there will be people saying that I shouldnt be in the game if i cant handle something so elementry, but this is my passion and i genuinly enjoy doing this I just dont like hurting innocent people.

I have even refused money from a ransomware operation once because I felt bad afterwards, and i dont exaggerate when i say my cut of the operation was seven figures. They ended up distributing my cut among themselves and I felt a bit stupid afterwards for refusing payment for something i worked 6 months on with them but i didnt know what else to do.

do you guys think im overthinking this? let me know if you feel the same.

fyodor