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Thanks for posting this. I would suggest looking at various rehabilitation clinics and seeking drug-use counseling or therapy if possible, maybe narcotics anonymous or something similar. The first thing is that you want to quit and that's a big step.
Don't give up on yourself, it's possible to get clean, it will take time and faith in the process.

I swear I'm not just saying this, but I thought the EXACT same thing. I was on daily IV meth AND heroin AND xanax. I used to curl up in a ball and bawl after shooting up. I hated myself and thought I was going to be like that forever. I thought it was literally impossible for me to not be on drugs because I was "so far gone." I had already internalized the fact that it was only a matter of time til I died.

One day, a girl I had been hanging out with talked me into going to rehab. I thought it was stupid and a waste of my time. I literally thought there was no hope for me. But I reluctantly agreed. The first couple weeks there, it sucked ass and I still thought I had no chance. I was supposed to stay 30 days, but as my release date approached, I asked to stay longer because I knew I'd fuck up.

Something changed after about 6 weeks. They had me going to work during the day and coming back in at night. I started realizing that I could function in real life without drugs.

It was an amazing fucking feeling. I stayed clean for 3 years when I got out. Not even alcohol or weed.

Even though after those 3 years, I have relapsed a few times, but I'm not back on the needle. I have kept a steady job. I no longer hate myself.


You need help. You need to be in a place where you are safe but can't get the drugs no matter how bad you want them.

Even when you're in as deep as you are, you can still stop. You have to make the decision to stop and then stick with it which is going to take a lot of mental determination and a long time of feeling terrible and not normal.. until you reach the day when you do start to feel "normal" again. And that day will happen - it might not feel like it ever will do as you're going through it, but it will.

You are not alone. There are us who have been on the same path and through the same point you are in. I know its a painful and lonely place to be. But you are not alone. And you have won the biggest battle - WANT TO QUIT. And you have HUGE reasons to do it. Reasons for which you cry now. Just drag yourself to a good rehab if money is not a concern. Think of it as a sabbatical from this current life. And just STAY in rehab UNTIL something changes. All my love.....I was there where you are now and am waiting for you on this side now.

If you could just feel "not bad" or "just fine" all the time without drugs, would you quit? Would you be willing to lose all of your wealth and family to do it?

Not saying that you have to, but take an assessment of what you're willing to do to be clean and feeling better.

Now make a decision fully accepting the worst case scenario. Sit with it. Get convinced this is the higher priority and be ready to ignore or destroy anything messing with this conviction. Gf temping you to use? Move. She doesn't exist anymore. Forge the new life. This one isn't working.

Walk the path. See increased patience developing. See the addiction weaken even if it pulses at times. KNOW you're just on a rollercoaster for a while. Peace will find you. It WILL end. Good luck brother.