Lost AF With Every Skill & Zero Direction. Help? : hacking | Torhoo darknet markets
Hey everyone. Okay, real talk: I'm totally lost right now. Rock bottom. Broke as hell, zero clue where my life's heading. Finished studying? Nah. Building some fancy career? Nah. Just... nah.
Thing is, I know stuff. Like, a lot of stuff. Seriously, name a field – ecom, hacking (Node.js, Next.js, C#, Python), building Android apps, running ads (FB/TikTok/Google), SEO, CTFs (THM, HTB), research, OSINT, OPSEC, digital products... graphic design, video editing, 3D, crypto (even made my own Solana meme coin!). Logs, CCs, spam, online ID theft, Photoshop fraud... bypassing verifications on Stripe, Wise, Revolut, Etsy... account cracking... you get it. Pretty sure I've messed with everything digital under the sun.
And honestly? I live for that rush – breaking rules, outsmarting systems, climbing walls nobody thinks can be climbed. That feeling like nothing can box me in? That's the fuel.
But here's my line: For me? It was always about learning and studying. Never stole from a real person or hurt anyone (well, unless it was some faceless big corp, maybe). Since 2017, the only cash I actually made? Selling cracked accounts – Netflix, Spotify, Disney+, IPTV. Clients paid me, I paid nothing. Pure 100% profit, free stuff. That was the goal. Except it got old fast. Maintaining that crap? Brutal. Accounts constantly resetting passwords, clients needing replacements daily... endless treadmill.
Fast forward to now? All that knowledge, all that 'experience'... and my pockets are empty. I'm burned out inside. Still broke. Been brainstorming like crazy, but I'm stuck. Feels like something's just blocking me, you know? Only in my head, I guess. And maybe that's the curse – knowing too much makes everything feel pointless? Like I see all the paths so clearly that none of them matter. My sleep's been wrecked for 3 years – crashing at 7 AM, waking up at 6 PM. Yeah, it's bad.
Before you think I just watched a few YouTube videos and called myself an expert? Nah, buddy. Dead wrong. I put real time into each thing. Okay, some stuff I only know the basics – like having a map of the city but never walking all the streets.
Here's the messed up part: I used to love obstacles. Like, obstacles were the game. The harder the wall, the bigger the rush. Now? I hit the smallest bump and bail. Switch roads immediately. And I know that's poison. I need support. Badly. And one hard lesson? Never build on motivation. That sh*t evaporates.
My goal now? Simple: Make at least $3k a month. Without harming anyone. Without stealing from anyone.
'Get a job,' some of you will say. Look, since I was a kid, my whole thing was making it without working for someone else. I just can't handle being told what to do, when to work... all that.
Honestly? Not even sure why I'm typing this. Why here. But... I know I need help. Seriously. I need someone to guide me. Someone with a real plan. Someone I can work with to actually make something happen.
Now, as for not wanting to hurt anyone with hacking, I don’t know if there’s an easy fix to that. Though, I have heard that some experienced hackers can get paid by finding security vulnerabilities in big companies’ websites. A lot of companies have programs for that, where they offer incentives to hack them and offer cash prizes if you can prove to them the vulnerability exists by showing them your hacking process. This is the only way I can see you making ethical money without needing to steal people’s accounts.
Hope this helps a bit, and good luck with everything :)