Quality of life since accessing DNMs : DarkNetMarkets | Torhoo darknet markets

How do people out there find the quality of their life since using the DNMs? I know that we all go through stages of this life style, depending on how deep we allow it to go & learning to keep our mouths shut about it of course.. First it's all new, both exciting and scary(for me) where you become consumed by it, until you finally get used to it as being a new normal, where not every random sound in the night means "LE are coming to get me". Then there's the personal sense of liberty and control in being able to obtain things made illegal by our cultures and societies that can often be beneficial to ones life, particularly psychedelics.. The latter, which i obtained through the DNMs enabled me to remove alcohol from my life after 35 years of drinking which almost ended me a couple of times through blackout drunk episodes. I also destroyed many friendships through drinking...Luckily for me both LSD & DMT gave me back a clean slate that i had as a child before i ever drank alcohol & allowed my creativity to be the shining light in my world as a wondering lost soul trying to find my place in this life & world. I've spent 16 years living overseas as a result of trying to get away from myself, my family & my old heroin habit..


Australians used to be a very hard drinking people & if you were a male who didn't drink and didn't love football(Aussie rules), you were considered a poofter(faggot). I was that kid. Uncles called me school girl etc, but thr irony is i've had more girl friends than they've had hot dinners. As far as i'm aware, I'm the only one in both my family and circle of friends who uses the DNMs. That used to feel like a lonely aspect of this life for me, until i realized that why would i want to spoil it by talking to them about it, or possibly introducing it to them? I discovered the DNMs on my own terms and carefully studied it and learned about Opsec & how to balance my everyday life with this one we are all living here now. So for me, the quality of my life has greatly improved, especially in the loss of fear department. I suffer from social anxiety, so every day normal life can be a struggle for me... But I never allow myself to get too comfortable with this lifestyle on the DNMs, so still maintain a sense of mindfulness in how i conduct myself publicly and what i say around the dinner table : ) It's the greatest secret i have and it's all mine, so fuck spoiling it by telling anyone about it. So i live by that cliche set of fight club rules :) It's so far served me very well...

Ventura Highway in the sunshine
Where the days are longer
The nights are stronger than moonshine
You're gonna go, I know

'Cause the free wind is blowin' through your hair
And the days surround your daylight there
Seasons crying no despair
Alligator lizards in the air, in the air...