She came over again (Im weak) : CafeDread | Torhoo darknet markets

After all the cheating and lies and calling me everything under the sun, she came back. I knew it was only for one thing, hell im use to the routine by now. She comes over, apologizes she says the right things then we have sex. I sicken myself with how much self respect I lack and honestly Im such a fuck up. All it took was one text and now she uses me for what she wants. Im so gullible I cant even realize she just uses me as a dildo, Disposable. Like im some sort of fuck doll for her enjoyment. "bUt BrO At LeAsT YoUR GEtTiNG SOmE". I am being used Like meat....I HATE HER....I HATE HER.... This is why I say love is false, She knows I will do anything for her. Yeah its my fault for having sex too I am not denying that at all. But she knows this and still plays on that. I would be fine if she was upfront and honest and just said what she wanted. Why lie? She knows we will have sex anyway, she will call my phone talk then boom she comes over. I wish I had more self respect for myself to cut her off but I just cant............Im pathetic

-The Fucking Blubber