People who have kids and those who don't will answer this very, very differently.
I've lived a full life. I don't fear anything. Been around the world and back a ton of times, experienced stuff people only dream about. Suffered the biggest losses and heartbreak in the world. Achieved the highest highs and made a ton of money. Lost it all and made some back.
I've talked with a Mito Kosei (a Hibakusha in Hiroshima, look him up), partied with Colombians and bricks of coke, tented in the wild with the lions in Angola, and ran out of gas in the Outback with insects that were trying to kill me.
But my biggest fear is something happening to my kids. Random diagnosis of an illness, an accident, or just life happening to them in ways that I can't control. You try so hard as a parent to mold them into a person and set them on a life path and there are bumps and bruises along the way, but you hope they make it.
I haven't done any of that, but I wish some day.
The fear for the kids or family in general is living rent free in my head constantly though and indeed there is no stronger dread than that.
Don't let the love for your family turn into fear and ruining the moment, easier said than done but living life with fear ain't nice but i mean im not you so i can't say or know how much this fear affects your life.
It's great to hear the love you have its a great thing to have.
My mom knocking on my apartment door to check in- yeah right more like inviting herself in unannounced and snooping through all my stuff for hours, then telling me how disappointed she is that I have not brought her grand kids yet for another hour.
ps- a scared noodle
That's sad to hear hopefully you and your mother have a relationship and you know it comes from love but I agree that doesn't sound nice people go through life differently, try and not to take too much notice of it brother <3
Thank you brother! I still love my mom, she brought me into this world lol :3 I just need to work on making my boundaries and personal life goals more clear to her.
makin me tear up bro. You're strong bro, she would want you to keep going if that's not offensive to say. My dad died and I try to remind myself of that.
salute
Comes with this lifestyle ig, but i never thought it would end like this . I wish she just wasnt so goddamn stubborn and would listen sometimes....